Don't worry, about a thing. 'Cause every little thing's gonna be all right...
It doesn't work for me. Something completely and utterly outside my control, like waiting for the bid import results, drives me into a crazy mess of emotion. They're now saying 15 May... but I am not holding my breath.
In other news, apparently I am confrontational and too assertive? I have to say, this almost makes me relieved, as I feel like I'm constantly pretending, constantly facing the world through a confident facade while inside I want to curl up in a dark corner under a table and suck my thumb. This is apparently feedback from my assessment day which I was unofficially told, and apparently someone was supposed to call me but they didn't. I'm not sure how I came across this way in the sim brief, as I recollect nothing other than feeling sick with nerves and clammy hands. In the interview, I get why they might think that as I found a couple of their questions patronising and answered them as such: tongue in cheek and more than a little defensive! However, I still passed, so... hmm. It will be interesting to see if I actually do get a phone call.
I'm sitting here in the crew room second guessing myself - because confrontational? There's nothing I like less than confrontation. Avoidance, more like, as I avoid confrontation at all costs - I even send my housemates text messages instead of talking to them if there's an issue, even if they're in the next room!
As I like to be perfect - perfectionist much - I don't like anyone having a remotely negative opinion of me so I must battle that out in my own mind! Once again, Things Outside of My Control.
I also held another cheese night last night and it was more than awesome. Cheese, wine, champagne, baked cheesecake, a fire pit and great friends.